Joy in the Darkest of Valleys

Have you ever had moments in your life when your heart seemingly cannot contain everything, you feel so desperate about expressing them? If having that profound joy in my spirit was a place somewhere, I can say I am there. I just can't simply put into words and sing any song to acknowledge God's goodness in me. The life I have chosen; giving up few things I had was difficult and some people might have thought this is somehow senseless. But I know God of whom I have put all my trust will never forget about me. He'll make ways through the darkest valleys.

I stepped out of my comfort zone. It was never easy yet I have never been this hopeful as before. The Bible says in Hebrews 11:1-2, "Now faith is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see. This is what the ancients are commended for." And I believe God will commend those who believe and those who are not blinded by difficulties and adversities.

We could be considered the wisest of men setting things at the right place as we reach our dreams but apart from the Lord, they are worthless and put our toils to nothing. Moreover, we may have had the worst decisions in our lives but it doesn't change God's goodness. He will always remain faithful and His love is still unfailing. Through this, I am always reminded to be humble and praise God in any circumstance.

My heart is grateful, I am satisfied and my faith is unshakable.

"In his heart a man plans his course, but the Lord determines his steps." - Proverbs 16:9

A Humble Beginning

Praise be to the Lord, for He has heard my cry for mercy. The Lord is my strength and my shield; my heart trusts in Him and I am helped. My heart leaps for joy and I will give thanks to Him in song. - Psalm 28:6-7

I'm a liar if I would say that I've recovered fully after a painful break up. It was never easy for me having to wake up each day knowing I'd lost something I ever wanted for myself. There were times when I had to fake the way I was feeling. I was afraid that people might say something I never wished to hear.

That was almost 3 months ago. This afternoon as I was writing on my journal, I examined my heart's condition. Not at all surprising, I know I feel better today.

There are moments in our lives when we face dead-ends and set backs after putting too much efforts to keep something we feel so important to us. Disappointments and frustrations would then come in and knowing that things are getting out of control, we feel powerless. What would be our last resort then?

Reality shows that most of us would run to God after realizing that we can no longer fight and win over circumstances. It's fairly usual to us human. But despite this, God willingly accepts us with open arms. He keeps on giving His boundless love and reassuring us of His promises. For me, there's nothing else I'd rather want to feel but the comfort God is providing me. I am confident that His mercy is new every morning. Everything He has given me are sufficient to pull me up to start over again.

The question now is who's holding my heart this time? None other than the One I'd like to give thanks on my songs. This sounds weird but I'm learning to trust God for who He is.