Wednesday, August 26, 2009

Why Live?

Someone asked me why is this life worth living. It wasn't just like any normal conversation we have had before in messenger. I didn't need to hear the entire reason why this was brought up. I knew at that very moment that there was something wrong that day.

I've read a lot of articles about how to have meaningful life or how to make our stay here on earth worth it. There could be thousands of ideas human minds could come up with. But when I tried searching for blogs that tell a thing or two about why we actually need to care about making this life worth spending, I found few.

Suddenly I was like on the hot seat. I cannot describe that time when I was just staring at those words without the least idea of anything I should say. My friend logged out with that question left hanging.

Thank God a church mate who happened to be online told me how I should be handling situations such as this. When somebody tells you that he or she's done with life and you're concern on that person, would you still be able to refuse to answer and just drop the topic?

I prayed and asked God for His guidance and protection for my friend. This reminded me not to stop interceding for people by the way. Then I recalled those time when I have at least my own thought about life and how God showed me His unfathomable love for everyone.

I didn't have an exact answer for the why question but I had to give the idea how much ones life weighs. All I know is that Jesus won't die on that cross of calvary for nothing. He won't be healing the sick and get a dead man back to life without reason. He won't prepare His disciples if He wasn't concern enough not just with people during His time but for those who would come after He's physically gone. When He demonstrated His love, He made known to man his value.

At the same time, knowing our purpose could answer the very reason why we're here. And having the idea where our journey should head, we can then follow the trail until it ends. When we know our destiny that needs to be fulfilled, we'd realize that this life is more than just today as how we see it. And time comes that life itself will tell more a lot about the future that would answer why this life is worth living after all.

Saturday, August 22, 2009

A Humble Beginning

Praise be to the Lord, for He has heard my cry for mercy. The Lord is my strength and my shield; my heart trusts in Him and I am helped. My heart leaps for joy and I will give thanks to Him in song. - Psalm 28:6-7

I'm a liar if I would say that I've recovered fully after a painful break up. It was never easy for me having to wake up each day knowing I'd lost something I ever wanted for myself. There were times when I had to fake the way I was feeling. I was afraid that people might say something I never wished to hear.

That was almost 3 months ago. This afternoon as I was writing on my journal, I examined my heart's condition. Not at all surprising, I know I feel better today.

There are moments in our lives when we face dead-ends and set backs after putting too much efforts to keep something we feel so important to us. Disappointments and frustrations would then come in and knowing that things are getting out of control, we feel powerless. What would be our last resort then?

Reality shows that most of us would run to God after realizing that we can no longer fight and win over circumstances. It's fairly usual to us human. But despite this, God willingly accepts us with open arms. He keeps on giving His boundless love and reassuring us of His promises. For me, there's nothing else I'd rather want to feel but the comfort God is providing me. I am confident that His mercy is new every morning. Everything He has given me are sufficient to pull me up to start over again.

The question now is who's holding my heart this time? None other than the One I'd like to give thanks on my songs. This sounds weird but I'm learning to trust God for who He is.